Happy with Guilt

I have had a really difficult time during my last semester.

I played a lot

I couldn't focus on study

I have two boyfriends broke up with me in a month.

Worst, I got caught for sexy modelling.

I couldn't have feel much terrible than these.

During study week,

I cannot really focus myself.

I know I studied,

But I became lazier and weaker in memorization.

I used to re-memorize for few times, but now I just look through and find for the spot questions.

I feel guilty but at the same time I was wondering if that is what we call 'STUDY SMART'?

Worst, 

I cannot focus during my test.

This is the firsst time I have no idea what I am writing in my essay during one of the test.

I was so useless.

and lecturer spotted question didn't came out on the test. 

I fed up and just pray for at least 3.80.

then,

I got my exam result today

4.00

I can't believe my eyes when I first looking at it.

I even took out the calculator to calculate the marks.

I was stunned.